kelayakan.

Once you own the power to change yourself, and to lead yourself ,
once you have a subtle understanding on what lies for your future,
 and you know what are you seeking,
and you also understand the path your'e choosing need some sacrifices,oaths and efforts,
and then, u are able to conduct those,

It is actually and obligation to oneself to lead the others.
not to gain respect,names and title,
it is for the sake of Ummah, and
it is actually compulsory for the muslims to help aid and salvage those who need helps in terms of
affection, knowledge, and love ( which is still undefined for my case)

For tht, embrace islams and understand our doctrine better then before.

Assalam,

an eye for an eye.

something like plucking your eyes out from your eye frame,

theres some blood spilling out for sure after you break the joint tht  connect your left eye with your brain is it?

for sure it will.

your blind spot widen. but your right eye can absorb more light.
You can understand more .
You appreciate your eye more, you appreciate your surrounding more.
Supposedly if you can just ignore that left eye you plucked out just now.
can you?

i lived with just one eye.

i see my world just using this right eye of mine.

tht left eye, indeed is still there, under my bed, inside tht red box, blood-colored.

since its my choice to pluck out tht left-eye of mine, i choose not to ponder much over it. why regretting?

sacrifices are needed, especially if i seek something big, something extraneous .

i can now focus more on one thing using one eye, two things using one eye, and everything just using this right eyes of mine.


an eye for 'an eye'. this is how i decipher and describe it.
sounds peculiar?
thts because u still craving for the third eye, even though you already have a complete, perfect 2 eyes.


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dont lie. dont hypocrite. let it out! live it!
 you know what u'r seeking soon enough.

tentang ilmu vs aku.

aku pusing karma mereka jadi saga.

bukan sagat, tapi saga.

aku asimilasikan LIS,GIS dan GPS.

dan kubentangkannya menjadi roda carta minda kuda.

gagah berlari, tenang menelusuri tanah yang kurang debu, tapi punya bau.

bau?

iya, bau-
bau apa? bau aku.

haha.

||| warisan ilmu- dari siapa? siapa punya? pencerita? pembalah? debat berangkara? paksi bersepah?

apa yang aku lihat?apa yang aku nampak? apa yang aku dengar, apa yang aku komposisikan dalam irama yang menodai kepala yang berpusing ligat seakan-akan disagat!

'sagat?'

yalah, sagat. bukan saga.

hentak kaki 21 kali pada tanah hingga debu hilang warnanya. merah likat jadi pudar, dan memutih menjadi kapan dunia .

fana betul.

What causes the Indonesia-Malaysia relations so fragile? many Malaysian often underestimate the indonesian people..? agree with this?

shall not agree on this biased prejudice.
plainly said, insatiable crave in being a perky over what this country had showered them is a natural human traits. Also as the prevalent news on this deleterious topic, i may say that at certain point when the citizen prompted on this issues that been exxagerated in words by the tabloid newspaper, people that keen to look into this matter tend to refute on what the indonesians have done-leading to prejudice making a maxim stating ' the relationsip already turned fragile'

Actually, only the third-class people and some of the second class take this matters thoughtlessly and jumped into a conclusion saying-

'orang-orang indonesia lupa daratan!orang bagi madu depa balas tahi kura-kura!'-for the malays and for the indonesians ' tahi betul kamu semua wahai penduduk malaysia!! kamu layan anjing betina jenis chihuaha lebis bagus dari kamu layan orang-orang kami. persetan kamu!'

dissemination of such news is what makes the people being prejudice over our relationship, as i dare to say we're still good. try reading bbc news and see how some of the douches shit-talking about malaysia about our current politics, our ministry, and about economy stands. thats how the world revolved.

btw, indonesia is a large country, with multifarious indonesians resided in them, compared to malaysia. maybe what makes the news emerged and become somewhat like a trend of malevolency, is because the sound of one men that influential enough had make the others become timid to shout out their opinions over this matters.

just my 2cents, i do blunders.

hirisan-hirisan limau dititis pada luka terbuka sebuku daging berwarna merah.

titis demi titis,
ku hiris limau itu,
lantas ku titis pada segumpal darah berwarna merah.

nyawa umpawa disadai pada kain putih berterbangan,
yang mengilai dibisik sebalik cuping telingaku..
aku tersadai dalam bingung dan runsing.
apa dia punca?
apa dia gila?
apa dia ketawa?
apa dia murka?
ku rasa diriku keparat, biar dia bersandiwara dalam sedih,
walhal aku dalam dilema dibalik puaka senja..

dia itu berbeza,
bukan pada nama,
bukan pada rupa,
bukan pada warna kulit mahupun jiwa.
dia sentiasa berubah kedudukan.
atas, bawah, kiri, dan kanan.
dia bergerak dalam dimensi yang seakan sama,
tapi lain pada hakikatnya.

azan ku dengar, ku rasa sedih dan hiba.
13 rukun ku tertibkan, dalam masa yang tiada khusyuknya.
masalah hati, masalah aku, masalah akal masalah aku,
masalah mereka, aku jua tahu,
masalah mereka semua, ku sandarkan pada aku.

aku tegar.aku gegar. nyawa di balik tanduk hitam yang seinci dariku.
aku tidak tahu dimana ia disimpan atau dimana ia diarahkan.
yangkutahu, ia sentiasa dibelakangku, memerhatiku..

senyap..aku mula bersahaja.
nafas kedua ku hembus jua...

AKU TAKUT, aku gerun. hatta aku menggigil.

30 AMALAN

1.Menunaikan solat.
2.Memberi zakat dan sedekah.
3.Menghayati Al-quran.
4.Menghayati hadis.
5.Menunaikan janji.
6.Berlaku adil dan cinta keadilan.
7.Sentiasa bersabar.
8.Sentiasa benar,amanah dan bertanggung jawab .
9.Tunduk dan taat perentah Allah.
10.Menjauhkan diri dari dosa.
11.Istighfar dan taubat.
12.Pemaaf sesama insan.
13.Ihsan.
14.Menahan marah.
15.Paksa diri beribadat.
16.Istiqamah.
17.Takut dan bertakwa kepada Allah.
18.Bertabligh.
19.Muhasabah diri dan memperbaiki diri.
20.Ammarmaarof dan nahi mungkar.
21.Berkeluarga dan menjaga keluarga.
22.Mujahadah diri dan berjihat.
23.Mengikut jemaah dan mengikut suara majoriti.
24.Mendamaikan, menghubungkan dan mengeratkan silaturrahim.
25.Percaya kepada yang ghaib serta kadha dan kadar.
26.Takut kepada hari akhirat.
27.Pemurah dan memberi makan kepada orang miskin dan anak yatim.
28.Menyelesaikan jenazah.
29.Belajar dan mengajar ilmu.
30.Membuang duri dari jalan dan menjaga hak awam.


berat-sangat berat..study pun tercungap. family pun tak terjaga. harta pun tak seberapa, mampu kah aku nak berjuang utk alif ba ta?

ku genggam bara, dan ku korban buah di tangan atas dasar ilmu. biarlah aku menyusu sampai 30 purnama..

mimpi itu indah kalau ia bukan sekadar mainan.

yesteryear, i hardly dream of people that i mutually known. most of them are unknown, never seen them before, and never bound any relationship with them, either any of habluuminannas kind off relationship.

yesterday, i just seem to think of you greater then anything else in this world, at at the brink of the moment i fall asleep, all the thought of you, rush down into my dream which marvel me to bliss. i sort off think what is the meaning, and generally, i just cant let my mind cast off the thought of you. itsa great feeling as soon i wake up, and remembering Allah by the grotesque morning before dawn, make me sedate, and turn myself back into slumber.

hurm... i think i started to miss you as a fitrah of human beings.. i dont have words to says when it comes to real face to face situation. plus, i think the way it is now already okay for god sake.. then,

let us just hop our way to our study notes shall we?  teehee~ :)